Sit Back. And Wait.

I lay still because I am scared that any movement will disrupt the order of things. I sit back and watch life unfold and wait for orders to make my move because an initiative might just be misunderstood. I do not create moments but I shine in those made for me. In matters of the heart, it is a delicate balance between wanting and happening. I need to make sure it happened and that is why I wanted not that I wanted and made it happen. The latter makes my perception play a greater role than it should. Then it becomes like, I wanted and therefore it seems like it happened. But it may not happened at  all. That is why I stand on the sides, distracted, waiting for shadows to appear before me and then I let go.

But I wait. Secretly wait everyday for the shadows, for the orders, for the moments.